Goodbye and thanks for the memories.

 

So, alone and in some 5 star hotel in KL, I find myself pensive and wondering. I’m wondering how the time went so fast. I’m thinking about the people I met. I’m analysing the situations I found myself in and in turn, I question my reactions and responses. Could I have done this differently? Only a fool would answer, “No”, but I must also say that a fool in its innocent wisdom would also know that one can’t change anything that happened in the past, and the wiser person would then say, “But one can learn from their experience”.

Have I learnt anything? I find myself laughing at this question. The answer, although apparent in many ways, will not be answered in its entirety until I find myself in a similar experience many years from now and when challenged, will I momentarily reflect on a time in 2013 when feeling out of my depth and grappling for air, I turned to someone and said, “Just fuck off”. So, who knows?

Wow, is this blog beginning to question existentialism or am I really just becoming self-indulgent? AND therein, I begin to question that question. Um, did I say that I was pensive?

A plethora of thoughts enter my mind and I question each and every one, some in minute detail, others enter and are dismissed as quickly as they encroach on my mindset.

Perhaps I should maintain brevity in the hope that I don’t confuse you and just say, Thanks……..for the experience. I assure you that much was gained from this experience and I am not only talking about my weight gain.

When I’ve had time to analyse this experience from a distance, I assure you, I will write in depth about this whole experience. The people I met who enriched my life by something as simple as a hug, a word or an act. The people who left an indelible imprint through their hubristic approach to life.  The sights, the sounds….everything.

So, terima kasih………for everything.